Shout it out to the World

o: i think, this time, your mind isnt at home
e: yeah
o: am i thinking right?
e: yeah
o: how long is it been?
e: months
o: how many?
e: 12 thinking, 2 dating
o: serious?
e: its a grey zone
o: grey zone?
e: i dont know how he feels
o: u said dating, but?
e: yeah, very much
o: then?
e: dating yes, commitment zilch
o: why u doing it to urself again?
e: i am happy
o: for how long?
e: atleast for now
o: who popped the question?
e: no one
o: so, how did it happen?
e: i dont know
o: he asked?
e: no
o: u asked?
e: no
o: then what?
e: i told him
o: what did he say
e: nothing
o: what did u tell him
e: whatever i had in my head
o: atleast ask him
e: am sure he'll run away
o: seeing someone else?
e: not sure
o: you know him well?
e: almost zilch
o: like him?
e: crazy
o: he?
e: am happy, know no more
o: then why you doing it?
e: i am happy
o: any direction whatsoever? or completely lost?
e: complicated.. confused.. but happy
o: dont do it to yourself all over again
e: i know what am doing
o: think again, you know nothing
e: probably, but last time i was sure
o: rebound?
e: pretty sure, not
o: how?
e: checked confirmed convinced
o: what does he think?
e: never asked
o: plan to ask?
e: not soon
o: who knows?
e: no one
o: ideas, anybody?
e: very many
o: plan to tell?
e: want to shout it out to the world,
but i amn't sure how it will begin or will it before that end!

The Subconscious

Into the half of a depth unknown
Foraying into darkness, by my own
Asking for a hand that hold another
Putting a seed of thought, in the head so cluttered

Vandalizing a life that once you lived
Thinking over a bond, that probably doesnt still exist
Scared of losing a dream, you hold close
The distance to reality, the uncanny dose

Humming to thyself, a tune ever unplayed
Waiting endlessly for words, so far delayed
For once, i could live to hear the letters sweet
Then, you can leave, on your path of creed

Get for you, the best in the world, you believe
Hold hands, fly, reach heights for me to see
No bars, no barriers, for me live a few dreams
The happiness will be greater than this heart's grief

Open up to a world of successes great
I'll save best of my smiles for the heights you scale
Smile your best when you lower me into my grave,
Smile, for, through you, i'll live a life again..