I think i love you: Part 2

I am not trying to undo your definitions of love, or to preach.. i am just jotting down the strains of thoughts in my head.. i may not say this explicitly in this post again, but whatever follows is my point of view.. you can wish to agree or disagree :)

love is a strange, undefinable region in our head. its not a feeling, its not a relationship, its a perception. people can differ on their takes on that personal space in their cranium but here is mine.

for me, the space is well carved out and cannot hold a crowd. Its not an expandable, inflatable region and has strict entry barriers to it. you could call me a stuck up bitch, but i wouldnt care less. until recently i believed that this space had no contact or diffussion with the rest of the head, but some events in the past few days have forced me to accept that a reverse osmosis applies and my boundaries are a little fused. at times you take a few steps back and forth before you hit the right spot. the process might tire you or burn you out, but more than not its a good reality check.

for me love is not a male-female or a male-male/fem-fem physical cum emotional bonding created by lurement of promises and visions of future or by the exchange of sweet nothings and strong words. for me, its a totally different experience.
for me its something that has no expectations, has no conditions, has no astrises.

Its that space in the world where you can be yourself without the thought of being judged or compared coming to your mind. love for a person is a resolve that i could end up doing anything for. Its the joy of spending time with people/things who give you the space to be. it doesnt have to have a reason, it only has to have a synergy. i wouldnt necessarily say a positive synergy.

the demarkations between the worldly definitions of love, like, lust, love-like, friendship are very fuzzy, mine are blurred, but my definations are no where near.
for me there is no strict boundary between any of these, its a common territory with varying depths for different people but not varying regions. for me marriage is an unnecessary social burden: why cant people who love, live their life the way they want and not how the world wants them to live it! why is marriage defined as the passport to not only unify two souls but also two physical entities.. is it not a personal choice??

why cant i "love" two or more people at the same time? love is not an exclusivity! its not an item in extinction.. i feel strongly for more than a single individual in my life and why cant i?! my comfort zone ends at different points with different individuals, and no one but me needs to be in a position to justify the implications or the threshold of my actions, if there ever be a need.

for me love is a strange empty place that is filled by different individuals at differnt times in my life.. some stay forever, while others keep leaving or coming back. after all they know the way in through those barriers.

for me, my heart is not something to think with. Life has been one very logical, step-wise, practical journey. i wouldnt ever do something, or let anyone force me into something that doesnt fit into my scheme of things.. and as far my vision goes, its not too far fetched, its not too distant, its not too ambitious.. my goals are small, short termed, achievable aspirations of my life. everything has to have a practical connotation and a rationale supporting it in the hindsight. be it be a relationship, be it be a step forward or a retracal in life.

i know that there are very few takers for my definitions, but that doesnt stop me from pouring my mind out.. i wouldnt really matter if i'm tagged promiscous, specially not when i dont agree on your deinition on that either.

Its the most treasured space in my head, that i call love, its my space, my world, its the place i frequent everytime i need support, i need care; and it has to be reciprocal.